July 2023 Journal

3rd July 2023
I managed to speak with my Primary Care Mental Health Worker at long last, last week. I explained to her that one of my triggers is when people say they’re going to ring me & they are either late, or don’t phone at all. She seemed to understand this & said she would ensure I receive text messages for future appointments. I explained to her what my main mental health issues are. She said she would refer me for their talking therapy, which is one-to-one, although she was unable to say how long this may take. I also explained to her that I wanted to come off my medication, so she is going to ask the pharmacist or consultant to contact me to discuss this. I have my next appointment with her on 24th July. I tried chasing my DVLA letter with my GP last Friday, and my husband tried again today, but they’re still unable to say when the form will be completed. It is 2 weeks today when we are due to take my mum away so I’m still really hoping I’ll get my licence in time. Tomorrow I have the online support group. Even though the course with the facilitators finished, the group decided we’d like to continue to meet online every week. It’s a really good, understanding group & we all seem to support each other as much as we can. I also received an email from Emerge last Friday. I referred myself at the beginning of May so it’s taken a while for them to get back to me. I’m waiting for them to confirm an appointment this week so we can talk about how they may be able to help. I still don’t feel comfortable meeting people in person so I’m hoping they have something online. I also have my counselling session tomorrow. I’m looking forward to speaking to her again. I’m still worried that she’s going to do what the previous 2 counsellors did, and say she can’t continue counselling me anymore. I really feel I can trust her, but it’s still a niggling doubt. I saw my mum yesterday. She’s been a bit down over the last few days, which I totally understand. She tried some new clothes on & we had a nice cuppa & cream cake & she seemed a bit happier by the time I left. I wish I could do more for her. I’ll be gutted if we don’t manage to get away in a couple of weeks, as I think it will do her good. I’m worried about my online meeting with my manager & HR on 12th July. I don’t know what they’re going to say so I can’t really prepare myself.