January 2025

5th January 2025
I haven’t been up to too much these last few days. I saw my counsellor on Thursday. For some reason I struggled a bit, one of very few times that has happened. I’m hoping to be more positive when I speak to her again on Tuesday. My husband had to go for his annual check at his doctors on Thursday. It went well but he is still struggling a lot with pain in his leg. He’s due to speak to his doctors tomorrow to try & get some better painkillers. I really hope they will make him feel better. I visited my mum on Friday. She was on good form & it was nice to laugh together. I spoke to an old friend yesterday & we have arranged to take our dogs to Temple Newsam on 15th January so I’m looking forward to that. I’m due to speak to my GP on Tuesday. I really hope she’s heard from the DVLA about my driving licence as I reapplied months ago now. I am so desperate to get it back. It will make everything so much easier. It’s snowing today & the whole country seems to have come to a standstill. How do countries like Finland manage to cope & we can’t? Strange. Taken the Xmas decorations down today so the room looks so empty. I’m hoping next week is going to be a better week or 2025 can do one!

7th January 2025
A really positive day. I had my telephone appointment with my GP this morning. We discussed my medication & she’s going to liaise with CMHT regarding this. We spoke about the DVLA contacting her regarding my driving licence. I went through the possible questions & she seemed to be on my side & couldn’t see any reason why I shouldn’t be able to drive. Hopefully this will come across with the DVLA & they will, at last, give me my licence back. Fingers crossed. Then I had my counselling session this afternoon. It was nearly all positive & we spoke about looking forward & what I want to achieve. I’ve created a list for 2025 & have started ticking things off already. Yesterday I spoke to a friend I was in hospital with in Darlington. It was great to catch up with her & we had a good laugh. We’re hoping to meet up soon. I got in touch with a good friend about meeting up & possibly going to bingo so that’s something to look forward to. I think this year is going to be a good one!

9th January 2025
100 DAYS WITHOUT ANY INCIDENTS!!

15th January 2025
It’s been a good few days. I visited my mum on Sunday. She was really tired so I only stopped for an hour. I’m hoping to see her again tomorrow. CMHT came on Monday. We discussed me joining a group of some sort. I fancy trying pottery! They’re going to refer me to Touchstone, which I’ve heard a lot of good things about, & I’m going to call in at Deacon House to see if they have any courses running. Then I had my counselling yesterday which, as always, went well. I love speaking to her & always feel better afterwards. I phoned the DVLA yesterday but my application is still with the assessor so that hasn’t moved on. I’m going to keep pestering them until they get fed up of me! I have an appointment to see my psychiatrist on 6th February so hopefully I can get my medication sorted with him. The sun is shining today which always makes me feel better & the snow has all gone. I’ve just finished a big diamond art picture for my friend so I’m going to get that posted a.s.a.p. It took me ages to do so I hope she likes it. No appointments for the rest of the week so that makes a nice change. Maybe I can relax a little bit.

20th January 2025
The last few days have been good, with only one day where I struggled. On Thursday my husband was in a lot of pain with his leg so had to stay in bed all day. It is so hard seeing him like this & I wish there was more that I could do. As I was on my own, I struggled & felt very alone, which is when bad things come into my head. I didn’t do anything stupid & told my husband I struggled & why. I just wish I could take his pain away. Yesterday we all went out for a family meal. Although the food wasn’t great, it was brilliant to catch up with everyone & to see our granddaughters. I taught one of them how to finger knit & she did some while we were there. She’s better at it than me now!! I’m glad I could teach her something. Today I have managed to sort out my pension which I have been trying to do for a couple of weeks so I’m really pleased that this is sorted now. This morning I watched England Women lose the Ashes to Australia. Not very good watching. Due to me struggling to keep up with everything & being really tired from looking after my husband, looking after our dog & keeping the house going etc we decided to take our dog to the house border. She loves it there & we get daily videos of her running around & sleeping! I’m going to try & get some relaxation time but still have a lot of things in my head of what I need to do / catch up on. I’m going to try & do a bit each day, so I don’t knacker myself! I’ve got my counselling tomorrow which, as always, I’m looking forward to. The hour just goes by so quickly. Maybe I talk too much!!

27th January 2025
What a week! We had to pick our dog up from the sitter as she had been sick a couple of days. She was sick when we brought her home but we managed to change her diet for a day & she’s back to normal, thank goodness. My husband’s back is better but he’s still struggling with his leg. He has physio tomorrow which, although may be painful, should help in the long run. I really hope so. Then yesterday my mum was taken to the dentist with a suspected abscess but had to be taken to hospital as the dentist thought it was her lymph node. It turned out to be an infected gland so she has to take antibiotics for a week. Nothing else could go wrong, surely. I had my counselling last Tuesday which went well. I’ve added to my list of distraction techniques which should help me if I’m struggling. I’ve pinned them on the notice board so I have easy access to it. I’ve got counselling again tomorrow & then I’m going for a walk with my dog & a friend with her dogs. The weather looks good & I’m looking forward to it. I’ve started selling things on Vinted, which I’m really enjoying. It gives me a buzz when I sell an item. I’ve got lots more to put on so I’m hoping to get them on this week. It keeps me busy which is good. I hope this week is going to be a better week than last week, fingers crossed. 118 DAYS WITHOUT ANY INCIDENTS!!