Battle

Why does a good day have to be followed by a bad?
It seems to come out of nowhere and it really makes me mad
I can be ready to face the world head on
But then something happens and everything goes wrong

The voice is still here and it is often so loud
It makes me angry, anxious, like I’m in a huge crowd
I’m trying my best to fight it, although it is really tough
Sometimes it makes me feel as though I’ve really had enough

There have been several incidents where I have had a knife
The only thing this will bring is a lot of trouble and strife
I am on my last warning, then they’ll throw away the key
The thought of being put in prison absolutely terrifies me

If I want my life back, I have to get through it
Break down my huge barriers, bit by bit

The staff here are brilliant, always there for you
Whether you feel you’re at crisis point, or just feeling a bit blue
They listen and encourage you to choose the right path
Offer you PRN or suggest a long soak in the bath

I have messed this up so many times before
Let people down, so they don’t trust me any more
So, it is now up to me to show these doubters wrong
Prove that I can cope with the voice whilst still remaining strong

I know it’s going to be hard to get through the other side
But it’s time for things to change, time to shine with pride
All I want is for my life back, to be happy again and free
For my husband to be able to trust me again, I’ll prove it, just wait and see