Darlington Hospital

I woke up this morning feeling great
I managed a lie in until about eight
I tidied my room and general places
I did it so early, I didn’t see many faces

After that I did some diamond art
I was thinking I may as well make a start
Then I went in the garden and watered the plants
I watched Newcastle play football and listened to the chants

I’ve has two walks today with one staff
I’ve been chatting to other patients and having a laugh
I love it when I feel like this
My mind being calmer is absolute bliss

As usual, when evening comes and daytime parts
My thoughts start turning and the voice then starts
I start feeling anxious and the thoughts appear
No matter what I am doing, I feel the fear

So here I am, sat on my bed
I know I should go out instead
But I do not want to be with others
I’d rather crawl under my covers

The distractions I’ve tried aren’t helping today
It appears the voice is here to stay
All I can think of is how to die
I can no longer pretend and lie

I know it may be the selfish way out
But it makes no difference if I scream and shout
I am so sorry to family and friends
There is no way I can make amends
I’m desperate to get out of this life I lead
I hope you forgive me, I beg, I plead

I will be the bright star shining at night
Watching down on you to make sure you’re alright
I hope you look up and talk to me
I’ll hear you and send you love, you’ll see