Enough

I’ve been feeling crap for a few days now
How I’ve got through them, I don’t know how
I can feel ok first thing on a morning
There are days though when I can’t stop yawning

The last few days I’ve really struggled with the voice
People say “ignore it” but that is not a choice
I can sometimes keep them at bay
But it’s such hard work fighting every day

Even at meal times I can feel in a mood
As the voice doesn’t want me to have any food
If I ignore the voice and decide not to eat
It gets louder in my head and I feel beat

I regularly see shadows watching me throughout the day
I don’t know what they want me to do or say
They’re not as bad as the voice in my head
Which is often there from morning until bed


It’s telling me to kill myself and even how
I’m desperate to get out of here right now
So I can do what it says, for it to come to an end
It’s the only way, I don’t want to pretend

I know what to do when I get the chance to get out
It won’t be pleasant, I may scream and shout
I just know I can’t cope feeling like this anymore
This is the best option, of that I’m sure

I’m trying to be patient, as I want to be free
I can’t wait for the moment when I can flee
Then, at last, I can do what I need
Myself and everyone will at last be freed