No Control

I don’t feel in control of my life right now
I want to take charge, but I don’t know how
I’m not trusted to be on my own in the house
I understand why, I don’t blame my spouse

I want to be trusted to be on my own
It doesn’t always work, past history has shown
But if I carry on like this, I’ll never move on
Things will stay the same, the future has gone

At the moment everything is standing still
The lack of progress is making me ill
The professionals really don’t seem to care
They don’t realise each day I’m living a ‘mare

I want all the investigations to be complete
They’re taking forever, am I going to be beat?
I’m tired of chasing people to see where we’re at
I want to stop feeling like I’m a door mat
Where people wipe their dirty feet
Maybe wanting me to admit defeat

My energy is slowly being sapped
It appears my life has already been mapped
By the people controlling my life all the time
But it wasn’t me, they committed the crime

How long must I wait for all this to be done?
Maybe they’re going to wait ’til they’ve won
I’m losing the fight, I’m feeling so weak
I’m fed up of my future looking so bleak